30 July, 2008

Desert Island Discs

Hannah listed her desert island discs. Here are mine and my reasons:

At my most beautiful - REM
This was the first dance at our wedding. Well we could shuffle about slow dancing to Losing My Religion!

Voulez Vous - Abba
I've loved Abba since I was six years old and they won Eurovision with Waterloo. I like the karate chop moves you can make when dancing to this song ( to the Uh -huh bit)

Bed shaped - Keane
Not really sure what they're talking about - is it dying? but I love warbling along to it. Ooooohhhh I don't think sooo.

You can't always get what you want - Rolling Stones
It played around inside my head when I was coming to terms with being "child free"

Love is all around - Wet Wet Wet
I just really really like this song. I'd like it played at my funeral- Steve is under strict instructions not to play the REM version.

Love plus One - Haircut One Hundred
it reminds me of when I was 14 and full of hormones. I really loved Nick Heywood. I was shocked watching "Bands Reunited" at how short he was.

28 July, 2008

Monday

The ticket machine ate my season ticket this evening! Luckily the nice man managed to get the ticket out for me. that ticket cost more than my car.

27 July, 2008

Sunday

During the week I caught the tail end of a documentary about being gay. John Barrowman was trying to find out if you are born gay or if it was a choice. he was speaking to a man who had made a considered decision to be straight. He had married and had children. The man argued that just as you can give up smoking, even if you still crave a cigarette - you could give up the gay life style. John pointed out that smoking is bad for you, being gay shouldn't be. I felt really sorry for the man...and sorrier for his wife.

26 July, 2008

Guilty and Anxious

Over the past couple of months I have learnt something new about myself. I've always thought of myself as easy going, relaxed and a tad on the lazy side. I may have been like that once, but I'm not like that now. I'm anxious and feel guilty a lot of the time. I'll give you some examples:
Feeling guilty -the feeling that I could do more. I don't walk the dog enough, the fish tank needs cleaning, we should really sort out the hall way, I should exercise more, I eat too much, I drink too much, I spend too much money, the garden needs a clean up...oh the list goes on and on and on.
Anxious: How will I be able to afford to retire? Someone is sitting on MY seat on the train- where shall I sit now?, I'm too loud, some one might park in front of the garage, if my neighbour decides to move who will move in next door? What if Steve dies? what if he leaves me?

Now these thoughts aren't in the fore front of my brain, more like a low level buzzing. So now I'm aware of them what am I doing? Well I'm taking deep breaths and as far as I can I'm trying to live in the moment. Everything is ok now. I can't know what is going to happen, but whatever does happen I'll find a way to deal with it. I'm not perfect but so what? I do okay.

Yesterday on the train home, a commuter started chatting to me. Some one I didn't even know. This is unheard of,as a rule we all studiously ignore each other, even if we know each other all you will get is a strained "hello". We only chatted for a few minutes, but it was really nice. A bit of friendliness.

22 July, 2008

Well Really!

I'm reading "Every which way but Dead" at the moment. Its about a witch, vampire and a pixie beating the bad guys (or demons or elves). Unlike some books I attempted to read, Keri Arthur springs to mind- it isn't heavy on the sex. In fact although there is a good story somewhere in her books, I got fed up with the heroine staring at men's "front trouser" bit to see if they were "excited". Any hoo I'm in the canteen at work , munching my salad when I realise I'm reading a pretty detailed sex scene. And it goes on for pages. I read it, as thankfully there wasn't any staring at the aforementioned front bit and I'm glad that Kisten and Rachel are finally getting it together - but it did feel odd reading all that at work.

16 July, 2008

me again.

Favorite person (outside family)?
If I'm counting Steve as family which I suppose I am, it would be Sharon. I met her through Steve about 11 years ago, and she is now married to one of Steve's friends. We have been through quite a lot together (marriage, fertility, moving house.. and had a good larf as well.

Favorite food?
Kung Po prawn with cashew nuts and vegetable rice. I'm ADDICTED.

Quirks about you?

I can read extremely fast.

How would the person who loves you most describe you in ten words or less?
Ah but who loves me most?

Any regrets in life?
I regret that when my nan died when I was a teenager and didn't have as much time for her as I used to.

Favorite Charity/Cause?
retired greyhounds.

Favorite Blog recently?
I have a few I read everyday- Dan, AOJ and the Lurchers, Hannah and the Secret Blogger.

Something you can’t get enough of?
Lie ins.

Worst job you’ve ever had?
Not the job itself but i once worked in an office full of really unpleasant people. I didn't talk to anyone during the day.

What job would you pay NOT to have?
The nit nurse.

If you could be a fly on the wall, where?
In a Executive Director's office. What do they do?


Favorite Bible verse right now?
I haven't got one.

Guilty Pleasure?
Crisps and red wine.

Got any confessions?
Naw, not me.

If you HAD to spend $1,000 on YOURSELF, how would you spend it?
I'd buy a piece of jewelery.

Favorite thing about your house?
I love my house. i suppose my favourite room is the living room. It looks out on to the garden.

Least favorite thing about your house?
The bathroom is a bit (!) tired

One thing you are bad at?
Sums.

One thing you’re good at?
Cooking.

If you could change something about your circumstances, what?
I'd relax more and worry less.

Who would you like to meet someday? Living or dead?
My grandparents.

What makes you feel sexy?
Erm...i don't want to answer that.

Who is your real life hero?
My mum.

What is the hardest part of your job?
The travelling.

When are you most relaxed?
When I'm sleeping.

What stresses you out?
My routine being disrupted.

What can you not live without?
Me of course! In the end it all comes down to me.

Do you agree or disagree with the recent article that reported that blogs are authored by narcissists?
Disagree.

Why do you blog?
I find it therapeutic. I blog for myself and it is a nice bonus if someone reads it.

Go Gina go!

I get home at 6.05pm. last night I looked at my watch and saw it was 7pm . In that 55 minutes I had:
Prepared dinner (cooked cheesey bake - delish)Whilst dinner was cooking I:
Cleared the clothes horse
put load of washing on. When the washing finished hung out clothes on clothes horse.
Swept the patio.
had a cup of tea.
That's quite a lot isn't it?

10 July, 2008

Dentist.

I went to the Dentist today for a check up. He talked about my bacteria ridden gums, but wouldn't clean my teeth (you know the industrial clean the dentist does, obviously I clean my teeth.) he said I had to make an appointment with the Hygienist. So I went to make an appointment and the receptionist told me it was 45 quid.
Gina: 45 quid!!
Receptionist: Shall I just book you in for your next 6 month check up?
Gina: Will the dentist tell me off?
Receptionist: No, you don't have to see the hygienist. The dentist has suggested it, bit you don't have to see her.
Gina: Ok, I'll just book for a check up.

I felt really fed up, what with my bacteria ridden gums and all. As I don't believe I have got bacteria ridden gums and I know how to clean my teeth I don't trust my dentist anymore.
I will, however, buy some dental floss. And try not to be too squeamish to use it this time.

05 July, 2008

Doctor Who

Just to say the episode hasn't aired yet, but I hope that there is a new Doctor. I think David Tennant is good as the Doctor but it would be brilliant to be truly surprised by a show. At the moment no one knows for certain what will happen and I think that is rare in this internet age. Unfortunately I won't be able to watch the final episode tonight as to my huge surprise it seems that I do have something called a social life.

Crisps

Coming back from walking the dog this morning I saw my neighbour and his neighbour. Now my neighbour is very pleasantly padded but there seems to be less padding now.

me: Have you lost weight? You look like you've lost weight.
My neighbour (grimaces): Yes the doctor put me on a diet.
Me: harsh. But it is working.
My neighbour; I haven't eaten crisps in 3 months.
His Neighbour (who is thin): I love crisps.
me: me too.
My neighbour: I used to eat ten packets a day. I'd rather eat crisps than dinner. I love crisps.
Me: I'd rather eat crisps than chocolate
His neighbour: me too.
Then we all went quiet thinking about how much we love the crisps.
This morning I looked up from reading the paper to see a cat standing in the doorway. Luckily Tom was asleep and didn't see it and I shoo-ed it away. As Tom is older now I'm not sure he could catch a cat - but I don't want to put it to the test.